A
reminder for today
“the
people who sat in darkness have seen a great light. And for those who lived in
the land where death casts its shadow, a light has shined." (Matthew 4:16)
When we step out into darkness we expose our souls to the
harm and hold satan have on us, and we enter dangerous ground.
Everything happened quickly and before I know it I was
asking her father for her hand in marriage. All seemed fine, but when the date
got closer I became scared and was afraid that I am about to make a mistake. I needed
closure and I needed to make a choice. I made my first mistake when I tried to
contact an old girlfriend to find that closure and to stand firm on my choice. She
found my messages and all crumbled. We got married but my insecurities cost me
dearly and we entered a time where she distrusted me and I rebelled against it.
Instead of talking it trough we argued. I should’ve opened my heart and share
my worries but instead I closed up and she just got tougher on me. I felt that
she wanted to control me, because she did not trust me.
So we just carried on ignoring our problems hoping they
will disappear.
We are quick to judge and look at other and slow to see
our own mistakes. I have made so many and some days I think I will never be
able to repay them. I am in a troubled place as I start each day broken and
lost. I open my eyes and I look up to Him seeking His warm light as it touches
my face and lifting my Spirit. Jesus continuous to remind me that my sin is
forgiven and I must forgive myself.
It is so hard.
Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus
Cheers
