Reflections of faith (Called) – 28 February 2019

But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

The enemy will continue to battle me, because I believe that I am getting closer to becoming the man God had in mind when He created me. I am slowly unfolding into His vision and His dream that He had over me. As the world crumbles around me God holds my walls in place, and He surrounds me with grace so that I can walk safely through the flames of life as the enemy tries to consume me. My body may seem tired and weak but in me dwells and almighty God and His power flows through my veins. I may seem broken and lost when you see me, but in fact I am at war with the worst of the worst and I am winning. The tears in my eyes are not tears of sorrow, they are tears of joy because I can see what God is doing. My eyes are opened by His love and my heart beats with His passion. I am His, I am a child of God, I am redeemed, I am repaired, I am stronger. 

God has called me by my name, and I have heard His voice. I see differently and I feel differently. I am not angry, I am careful, because I have seen the devastating effects of the enemy and I have seen how his lies can affect people. I have seen how the enemy can mislead, misguide and misinform people so that they are selfishly consumed by an illusion of what is right. I have felt his pain and I have stood broken and empty before my God. Fear not, the Lord says for He has redeemed me. Fear not for I am your salvation and your freedom. I am the way and the only way. Remember if the world hates you because you are mine, it hated me first. You will see hard times and you will face tribulation, but you will succeed, and you will stand up again. Your trust is in me and I am your God. I can change situations, hearts and walls in mere seconds. Be patient, because I am with you and I will never let you stand alone. I will fight your battles and your enemies will stand in shame when they see my power unfolds in you. Be the man/woman I need you to be and be and the warrior I need in a world that is ruined by darkness. I am your fortress and in me you will find safety and rest. Fear no more.

Have an awesome day. 

I love you, my friend in Jesus.

Cheers

Reflections of faith (Weary) – 27 February 2019

My soul is weary of my life; I will leave my complaint upon myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul. I will say unto God, Do not condemn me; shew me wherefore thou contendest with me. (Job 10:1-2)

I do not have much to write today. I feel that the storms in my life is just getting worse and worse and I can feel the darkness setting in. This morning I woke with the words “WHY”. Why me Lord. My ex left and she seems to be doing well. I on the other hand is battling every moment of every day just to make ends meet and to be in more than one place. What I do I do for my kids and my little one that does not want to go to his mom is a difficult thing and I am on my knees asking God to change her heart so that she will see he must stay with me so that he can deal with this. I feel broken today. It was leg day and I think I took out my frustrations on my legs, because they are still shaking, and they have that constant numb feeling. It was a good workout though.

When my life feels the way, it does now I often look at Job and what he went through. My soul is weary of my life and I will surely lay my complaints. I fall asleep in seconds and I can’t get up in the mornings. I am so tired of all the nonsense in my life and the challenges that I face. I look up at my Lord and I ask why He argues and struggles with me. I tried so hard to be better and yet I am the one being punished. I wanted my family to be well again, but I face the condemnation. It just does not feel right.

Yet God answers for My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts higher than your thoughts. “For as the rain and snow come down from heaven, And do not return there without watering the earth, Making it bear and sprout, And providing seed to the sower and bread to the eater, So will My word be which goes out of My mouth; It will not return to Me void (useless, without result), Without accomplishing what I desire, And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.

I am not there yet. I still have much to do and much to change. I am your servant Lord and I give my life for you. Bring my children to me and let them stay with me. Bless me oh Lord, so that I can keep my home and create a safe place for my boys. Bless our home and reign in our house so that we will glorify you in every moment. Give me the strength I need to be the man you saw when you created me. Have an awesome day.

I love you, my friend in Jesus.

Cheers

Reflections of faith (Defender) – 26 February 2019

But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee. For thou, LORD, wilt bless the righteous; with favour wilt thou compass him as with a shield. (Psalm 5:11-12)

The enemy is hard at work trying to get to me. My business is taking huge knocks and I am considering closing my fitness classes, because my kids need my time. I believe that time with my children is far more valuable than all the money in the world. But at this stage a little help would be great. I lost a few students this year and it is getting harder to make ends meet. Yesterday was a good example of how the enemy uses anyone to get to me. I had a class and my house keeper looks after the kids when I am teaching. On Mondays she works at my ex -wife’s house and yesterday she called my ex to say she would not be in because one of her kids was sick. My ex just did not think it important to share it with me. So, minutes before my class I called her, and you can imagine I was not impressed when she simply said that that my house keeper is not coming today. Not a good day, but then God send a storm, so my class was cancelled. I think God is looking after me in ways that I can just not explain.

I read this psalm to my son last night. I love it. Let them who trust the Lord rejoice, because He defends them. He will protect those who love Him like a shield. God will bless the righteous. He is my shield at this moment in my life. I tell you the storms around me is quite intimidating and I am so tired from this burden that shadows me. But I will keep trusting my Lord and I will rejoice, because my enemies will stand in amazement when they see what my God is doing in my life. I know He is busy changing my course and I know God is altering my journey. I must just be patient. I worry about my kids, but I know that they are safe and protected because my trust is in the God who created heaven and earth, the only living God. 

The world and the people of this world may try and get to me, but my God is my defender and I will sing praises as the storm rages on, because I am safe in His hands and I am a child of God. Nothing can pull me from His hands and His protection, and I can do all things through my God who strengthens me. There is no one like our God. Have an awesome day. 

I love you, my friend in Jesus.

Cheers