Today Reminder – 12 May 2015 (Day 5 – Darkness)

A reminder for today

“the people who sat in darkness have seen a great light. And for those who lived in the land where death casts its shadow, a light has shined." (Matthew 4:16)

When we step out into darkness we expose our souls to the harm and hold satan have on us, and we enter dangerous ground.

Everything happened quickly and before I know it I was asking her father for her hand in marriage. All seemed fine, but when the date got closer I became scared and was afraid that I am about to make a mistake. I needed closure and I needed to make a choice. I made my first mistake when I tried to contact an old girlfriend to find that closure and to stand firm on my choice. She found my messages and all crumbled. We got married but my insecurities cost me dearly and we entered a time where she distrusted me and I rebelled against it. Instead of talking it trough we argued. I should’ve opened my heart and share my worries but instead I closed up and she just got tougher on me. I felt that she wanted to control me, because she did not trust me. 

So we just carried on ignoring our problems hoping they will disappear.

We are quick to judge and look at other and slow to see our own mistakes. I have made so many and some days I think I will never be able to repay them. I am in a troubled place as I start each day broken and lost. I open my eyes and I look up to Him seeking His warm light as it touches my face and lifting my Spirit. Jesus continuous to remind me that my sin is forgiven and I must forgive myself.

It is so hard.

Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus

Cheers

Today Reminder – 11 May 2015 (Day 4 – Darkness)

A reminder for today

“to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, and to guide us to the path of peace." (Luke 1:79)

Every beginning has and end and every end has a beginning. To find myself again I need to start at the beginning. Please forgive me if my memories are vague, it has been over 10 years…

It was tough week for my friend Ian when he called. When times were tough we often went out to “Firkens” for drinks and the music. Most of the time they had a live band and the music was always good. So on a short while we would be having fun and the troubles we had would be behind us. 

She was beautiful when I saw her on the dance floor. She seemed a little shy and a little uncomfortable, because many young male predators where making their way towards her. I pulled Ian on his arm as we stood closer making a barrier so that these guys had no choice but to try elsewhere.

Soon we sat together and talked and she left her number on my phone. When I phoned her the next day she sounded surprised and even more so when I asked her out on a first official date.

I took her to Monte Casino and we had a great time. Everything seemed so perfect and I was in love. From there on everything happened quite quick and before we knew it we were planning our wedding day…

To see the future one must look behind him. I looked ahead and it seemed as if I had found my match. My life was filled with blessings and I did so well at work. What could possibly go wrong?

Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus

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Today Reminder – 10 May 2015 (Day 3 – Darkness)

A reminder for today

The people who walk in darkness will see a great light. For those who live in a land of deep darkness, a light will shine (Isaiah 9:2)

My darkness now is much greater than ever before. In the last month I have fallen into a deeper and more severe darkness. I have caused those close to me a great deal of pain in my own fall and with my mistakes. These mistakes have followed me for many years and finally broke the surface and caused terrible sadness to those close to me.

You see an affair I had now destroyed my marriage and brought so much pain into my life and the lives of other. In the last few months I have questioned my own beliefs and the very relationship I had with Jesus. I have been called a hypocrite and rightly so, because the very truth I stand for are now the stones that I have to face. I have betrayed my God and I have lost everything. 

I stand in darkness as my world collapses around me and I battle to hold on to Him as I have lost my faith and fear now dwells in its place.

I am so broken as I face daily judgements. I look into the eyes of my little boys and my heart splinters into pieces. I am filled with regret as I judge myself and punish myself for what I have done. Yes, we have had our differences but in the end it is all my fault and I now have to live with that and it is killing me.

My land is dark as I stand before the Lord broken and in pieces seeking His face and His guidance. I feel so lost as I walk each step lost and alone. 

It is funny how we feel alone on our battles and how we try to decide how God will react and how angry He is at us. I have done so much wrong and I am terrified to look people in the eye because of what I have done in my life. Jesus says that His grace is enough and no matter our mistakes and how terrible our sins, He has taken this burden on His shoulders and on the cross. I need to find my forgiveness in myself and break the grip that satan now holds on me. I need to find my path back to the light and be better for I am His child and as much as I think I understand love I can never comprehend His love for us.

I am struggling, but I know He is with me. There is light even in my darkness.

Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus

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Today Reminder – 13 April 2015 (Day 2 – Darkness)

A reminder for today

Then everyone who has eyes will be able to see the truth, and everyone who has ears will be able to hear it. (Isaiah 32:3)

I love Matthew 6 verse 22: "Your eye is a lamp that provides light for your body. When your eye is good, your whole body is filled with light. But when your eye is bad, your whole body is filled with darkness. And if the light you think you have is actually darkness, how deep that darkness is!” 

When we turn from God and darkness consumes us it is frightening when you realise how deep that darkness is. With consuming darkness follows unforgiving and depression and they are two of the largest contributors to the fall of many Christians. When your eyes are focussed on the Light that Jesus provides and you seek this light with all your heart. It will fill your whole body and drive out the darkness that is eating away in you.

Come my friend and let us look up to the Light. Let us open our hearts to the Lord so that He can fill us with His presence. Let us see the truth for the truth is the salvation that we received freely on the cross. Let us hear the truth for the truth is spoken by the Holy Spirit that dwells within us. Let us open our hearts for our hearts is filled with the love that is God. This love my friend is tangible so you can feel it. This love is the love of an Almighty God and I pray that you whole body is filled with warmth as you read these words for I confess that He is a real as the love we share. 

There is no darkness, there is only light. Hear it, see it and feel it.

Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus

Cheers

Today Reminder – 12 April 2015 (Day 1 – Darkness)

A reminder for today

Look, a righteous king is coming!  And honest princes will rule under him. (Isaiah 32:1)

How are you my friend? It has been a long time since I have written to you and I must admit I missed it. My journey is still a long way from its end and now it has taken a darker turn. I find myself standing before a huge crater in my path filled with bigger challenges than ever before. For a while I felt my path turning away from God as the enemy finally succeeded in its plan. Much has changed, but I will tell you more about that as we start our journey at the face of the crater that lies ahead. 

I have found myself surrounded by darkness as pain and anger took the place of the Light of Jesus in my life. I looked at the changes that await me and I stopped to listen to the voice of reason, the voice of God, and I relied on my own strength. I failed.

They say that light separates darkness and I must say that is so true. I can feel how the Lord is reaching out to me in last few days calling me back to Him, calling me back to my journey. Yes I have to walk this path with bigger burdens but what are we if we do not face our challenges with Him in our hearts. Why do we try to battle alone when we are weak and full of fear? 

Come with me my friend and let us look ahead towards the light. Let us forget the pain we gave and the pain we received as we reach out to the only one who heals and gives life. Look a righteous King is coming and with that our time is running out. Let us stop fighting against the things that pulls us back to a worldly person and let us embrace the things that will take us to the light. 

I wish to leave you with this poem from Carol Wimmer:

When I say, “I am a Christian”               
I’m not shouting, “I’ve been saved!”
I’m whispering, “I get lost sometimes
That’s why I chose this way”

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I don’t speak with human pride
I’m confessing that I stumble –
needing God to be my guide

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not trying to be strong
I’m professing that I’m weak
and pray for strength to carry on    

                   

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not bragging of success
I’m admitting that I’ve failed
and cannot ever pay the debt

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I don’t think I know it all
I submit to my confusion
asking humbly to be taught

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are far too visible
but God believes I’m worth it  

  

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartache
which is why I seek God’s name

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I do not wish to judge
I have no authority
I only know I’m loved

Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus

Cheers