The current everyday me VS the me God needs me to be
We are continuously faced with the battle of who we are and who we should be. It is God's desire that you will grow in your relationship with Him to a level where praising Him is natural.
I believe the answer is simple. Everything in your life is designed by God. Sometimes we don't feel this way due to bad things (interruptions) that happened.
We can never understand His work or His thoughts, because we look in small pictures while God is painting on a canvass much bigger than that. And to make things worse we want God to explain Himself to us.
If your life up to this stage was designed by God, placed in position by God, and you give your heart and fears to Him. You will find purpose. Purpose designed by God.
You are in constant conflict with your sinful nature and what the Holy Spirit desires. Let the Holy Spirit be your Guide and grow in your relationship with God, because the closer you get to Him, the closer you will get to who you should be.
Paul gave us nice guidelines that you will find in Romans 12 from verse 9 - 21:
9 Don't just pretend that you love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Stand on the side of the good.
10 Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other.
11 Never be lazy in your work, but serve the Lord enthusiastically.
12 Be glad for all God is planning for you. Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful.
13 When God's children are in need, be the one to help them out. And get into the habit of inviting guests home for dinner or, if they need lodging, for the night.
14 If people persecute you because you are a Christian, don't curse them; pray that God will bless them.
15 When others are happy, be happy with them. If they are sad, share their sorrow.
16 Live in harmony with each other. Don't try to act important, but enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all!
17 Never pay back evil for evil to anyone. Do things in such a way that everyone can see you are honorable.
18 Do your part to live in peace with everyone, as much as possible.
19 Dear friends, never avenge yourselves. Leave that to God. For it is written, "I will take vengeance; I will repay those who deserve it," says the Lord.
20 Instead, do what the Scriptures say: "If your enemies are hungry, feed them. If they are thirsty, give them something to drink, and they will be ashamed of what they have done to you."
21 Don't let evil get the best of you, but conquer evil by doing good.