A
reminder for today
"I
am the First and the Last; there is no other God.” (Isaiah 44:6)
This weekend marked the end of me. I realised that I am
just no good and that I cause more pain and heartache with every step. I
thought that me and my ex-wife were doing fine and that I was making good progress
until it all changed. It turned a good Saturday into a terrible one with an
argument that seemed so unnecessary. I am wrong that I know and I am the cause
of all this. It is all because of my mistakes. I will take full responsibility for
the pain I caused and continue to cause. It boiled in me all weekend until I finally
realised that they are better off without me and that I am the result of all of
this. This on its own made me question so much about myself and finally Sunday
evening I felt that I needed to go to church.
The message was all for me. The pastor said that there are
three things that makes every Christian fall and destroy most marriages. They are
lust, possessions and position. I am guilty of all three, because I had more
than one affair thus lust, I also chased position when I climbed the corporate
ladder up into management and I was consumed by possessions when I desired a
bigger car and bigger house even when we could not afford them. All of this
placed a huge amount of stress on me and my marriage and finally it all collapsed
and created a wall between us. There is only one God and we can never worship
two. We can never divide our love, because we are not designed like that. Money
and power means nothing to God, because God speaks and He created the universe.
He does not need our gifts and our money, He needs us. He made us in His image
and that means His mark is on us. This means that we are His and that He will
do anything to keep His precious people, even give His Son so that we can be
free.
I am not well today and I am in a terrible place. My heart
feels empty and my emotions are a mess.
"I
cry out, 'Help!' but no one answers me. I protest, but there is no justice. God
has blocked my way so I cannot move. He has plunged my path into darkness. He
has stripped me of my honour and removed the crown from my head. He has
demolished me on every side, and I am finished. He has uprooted my hope like a
fallen tree. His fury burns against me; he counts me as an enemy. His troops
advance. They build up roads to attack me. They camp all around my tent.” (Job
19:7-12)
"But
as for me, I know that my Redeemer lives, and he will stand upon the earth at
last. And after my body has decayed, yet in my body I will see God! I will see
him for myself. Yes, I will see him with my own eyes. I am overwhelmed at the
thought! "How dare you go on persecuting me, saying, 'It's his own fault'?
You should fear punishment yourselves, for your attitude deserves punishment. Then
you will know that there is indeed a judgment." (Job 19:25-29)
Today I want to remind you that our Redeemer lives and no
one can destroy you unless you allow it. He is fighting for you every moment of
every day and you should not give up. I want to end with this quote from the
movie The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel:
“All will be well in the end, if it is not well, then it is not the end yet”.
Have and awesome day dear friend of Jesus
Cheers
